…. Without the moon and winking stars in its skies,
The Night will always be called The Night ….
3:23 Am – Avenue de Buenos Ayres
freaks !! i cant sleep.
well’aii.. really never know or learn how to sleep, i mean if we sleepy we just fall asleep, right ? or left ? or center ? whatever 😑
some people need some pills or maybe syringes too, just to make them closed their eyes.
i can get easy to fall asleep when i’m tired. and i’m not tired right now. and if the tired one is your soul, long sleep also will never get enough to go.
but i dont know why, God also dressed you with that amazing talent. i mean, to make me sleep easily. no, i mean, to make me easily fall asleep,, no no i mean,, to make me fall asleep with peace..
oh shoots,, 😬 am i just writing another soft words for R.I.P ??
no,, i mean i really can sleep well if you are around me.
yes !!! thats what i’m gonna tell.
no, just tell.. 😑
i dont know how many mailbox you will received after you give on your phone later or when the signal just cum again.
i hope you will not getting anger also with the sounds of unstopped notifications from your messages in any applications we connected.
I’m worried.. why you can understand that ?!
why you like so happy to leave me in unknown directions of you ? 😠
yes.. I’m angry right now. 😡
I’m angry cz you didnt sent me any messages since you just dropped the call. 😞 I’m just worried..
i get up and uphold my pillow to leaning.
awhh what is these,,i feel my nape touch something keen..
i try to rub my nape and search what was that on my pillow..
Godness. your earring.
we was….searching for that a month ago,,you dashed out in hurry to run for AZA 317 that brough you to Rome, and leave me here alone.
Are u wonder now why I’m not searching for that after you go ?
Exactly yes i did,,
but what was i found there only your smells, and this meshing bed nothing else more.
Yes i didnt clean up it. Disgusting isnt it ?
I – dont – way – carreeee.
I didnt want your smells gone.
Its 5:00 Am now,
and i still cant sleep..
this feelings again.
I’m turn my desk calendar,,oh may mayyyy… yes it was a month ago.
This day. Today.
i just can rub my face with my palms and exhale as big as i can.
after our Super in Chez Ribe.
we have no umbrella to home.
you refused Uber,, u said, getting in the rain with me would be more memorable than just kissing in the backseat of the car.
its just 300 meter to my block from Chez Ribe, but with you..
thats nite really was a huge stage for us.
” I LOVEE YOUUU !!!” , you shout out loud with your face up to the sky.
With sometimes you smile wide like you let the rains down to your mouth and give you power to shouting like that.
“baby,,please,,what are you doing ? stop it..” , I’m wondering cz everybody just staring at us.
“JEEE T’AIIMMEEE !!”
you keep shouting out loud with a graceful face still look up to the sky.
Oh – my – God.
Now everyone in the Chez Ribe outside chair staring at us too.
I even know that taxi driver was stopped only for smile and gimme thumbs,, i just can reply him with wierd smile and hand wave say : merci.
Also that little girl in the front seat of the red car beside us, who seems asking someting to her mom about what you did, cz her little finger was pointing on you. And like i know her mom answering : you will understand that when you growing up and be a lady like her.
Akay i think enough for the attractions. I walked close to you cz you moving around like enjoying the rain as sounds of music for you to dance.
I hold and touch your cheeks.
“what are u doing..?”, i whispering carefully
“i wanna shout to the world. I wanna that Eiffel also know about what i feel. I want everybody know how happy i am now. I wanna -”
Am just put my finger verticaly on your lips to stop your words, but
You throw my finger and shout again
“why ? Am i do something evil ? Am i do something wrong ? Am i made you shame ? Am i -”
~ Blaarrrr ~
Now the thunder shut you up,, as you directly close your eyes and cover your ears with your hands..
….but my hands already there.
Then you open your eyes slowly..
I really love the way you did it..
Heavenly.. Just like in the morning when i always wait you to open it up..
I just can rubbing your cheeks with my thumbs..and bite my lower lips. And hugs you, hope you stop all thats words, but again, that wasnt good choice to shut you up.
“tell me ?? am i brave enough now to tell to the world how much i love you ?? am i still wrong if i can do more than you can do ??”, now you whispering thats words with your soft trembling voice, with your head in my shoulder.
“No you not !! you – totally – not !!”
i try to calm you but,
then you move out from my arms, and step backward.
“say it,, shout it,, tell to them that you only love me. let this world know. shout it now !!”
i just can pull you really tight back in my chest.
tighter than i ever did before.
and i know you can feels my body trembling. no i’m not cold. I really burn that nite. and i’m happy we was in the rain. so i didnt need to see your tears, or you see mine.
i still hugs you and just whispering on your ear : “Ich liebe dich.. Ich liebe dich so so sehr, Schatzi..”
“why..? why you just wishpering it to me ?”
“You.. you are my world.. my all.. i didnt need to shout it loud. you already know that by now.. and you will always know..”
yes i cant see your tears. yes you also cant see mine.
and we walked home like Avenue de Suffren just a chapell of wedding.
yes our chapell..
we walk in hands without flower in our heads but rain.
i woke up and directly see my phone,, just some email from office friend and games and misscall from my mom. your name still absence.
i still have kind of 3hours before you come..
hah ??!! what is this ??
not yet done with what i have looked with my pajamas pant, my bells rings me.
~ Ding Donng Diingg Doonng ~
“Mr.Archer Mr.Archer , Bonjourrr ,, are you home ?”
omg,, why and why ? why – should – she – come – in the worst – time, demm!! i walk to my door and found a Parisian women just standing out of it.
“hoo-hoolla Madame Serena, hehe.. bonjour..”
“ahhh there you are, how are u ? i come to bring your milk, this is still fresh and–heyy why you hiding like that in the door, do you have problem with it or–“
oh shootss shootss,,why she bangs my door open like this no no no–
“have problems with, bonniess..?”😯
“oh hehheehee i-i-am a-m you know what-the rain so cold haha and aii-just wake up late..” 😅
“aaaa you wake up so early then. I put it there so you can prepare your self before office..”
“hehehe sûr. Merci beaucoup”
“and dont forget to shake it..”
“sorry ? To sh-shake what ??”
“the milk.. It will get colder when you take it before you go..just shake it some..”
“heheh ofcourse i will.. I will put it in icebox to keep it fresh. Super merci madame,,good day for yah..”
She just shut the door and go.
Dankkk !! Thanks God she go.
Bonnie,,shake,,that winks. What she tried to sayyy.. 😤
Oh shootss,, no,,
its 7:01Am already. I’m gonna be late.